The only way to get through with hearts and wrists intact is...

A/N: I just wanna say sorry that I havent really spend much time on here, I've been spending more time on 43 things to be honest. =( I dunno really else what to say.

 

The way the stars shone that night
Showed your body for what ti really was
Just a beautiful chaos of bruises and scars
The victim of a malicious war

Sleepless night
Fighting a lonley fight.
Icy clarity
Crystal rain
Sparking off this moonlught flame.

Screaming out loud
(In my head)
So why can't you hear me?
A thousand voices,
never stop talking.
I tried explaining
Stuck with too many choices.
Don't you feel it now?
I regret it,
Falling in the dirt
But, it ain't falling unless you cry when you hit the ground,
And I refuse.
You A* student at
Fucking up and making me feel like shit.
It'll be a long, long night tonight
Sleeping on your own
Realizing I am gone, and your all alone
It'll be a long ride
And they'll be no one by your side.

I stood at breaking point

Observing the world as it rushed below me

Seeing it for what it really was

Disastrous chaos, with a hint of deadly consequence.

Everybody was destined to end up the same as me

Wasting away,

Life slipping through my fingers like tiny grains of sand

I was inevitable.

Voices erupted in my head

Then the brief, tortuous slam of traffic noise

Followed by a bitter, piercing silence.

That’s the only memory that I have

Before the split decision I had to make

Freefall release or purely existence

It turns out the pull if sharp instruments and intoxicating temptation

Was more than I ever could’ve imagined.

My head swimming with confusion, blinding my sense of morality.

It hit me, like a thousand ton weight

Crushing my fragile life-source, but presenting me with the adrenaline kick I so desperately craved.

Teetering on the edge, I smiled

My coin had been tossed

We live a game of chance it seems

With only one eventual outcome

Chance just determines the amount of torture we must first endure.

Eternity, caught in an hourglass

Heads is chance, a lucky break

Tails, and the hourglass shatters.

Looks like today is my lucky day…

-TICK TOCK-

Freefall, into the unknown.

Note: Just a quick note before I show you all this. For one of my 43 things, I'm doing to write a piece of poetry everyday for two months. The first one was yesterday and now this is todays. Enjoy and please comment if you like?

 

Blinding lights haunt this ghostly city
Teach me how to see in black and white
Because all I can see is these shades of gray
Going down slowly, losing this chemically chaotic fight.

Black widow, demon of night
Headliner of news, mistress of fright
Empty shell and hollow lies
Cancerous love and starving cries.

Flashing pictures, unfocused truths
Your the secret on my lips
Tonight we dissapear, tonight we belong
Promised sail past on broken ships.

Hold my hand, pretend to care one last time
Stalking angels cast deathly shadows
As the rain came pouring down
I'm broken inside, but nobody sees your crime.

Unseen faces block the way
Grasping desperatly, mindless existance
Fate can never be compromised
Walls close in, everytime they betray.

Tomorrow we can read all about it
Extra Extra! As we all fall, down
Only the strongest will survive
You slip away, a memory of this town.

Rainy days spent
Torn apart
We cry in silence
The stars come out
To play
But nobody imagines the secrets
They hold
And nobody ever suspected
That sunsets often lie.
Clarity here is pretty
Non-existant.
Day by day is constant
Torture unknown.
Nobody knows the secrets
That stars often lie
And nobody ever suspected
That sunsets often lie.
Thinking memories to be made
Replacing others we shouldn't lose.
On this rainy day I stand
Alone, and afraid.
Thinking how tragic it is
That of all the wisdom and teachings
This world does hold
That I was never taught
How to let go.