The only way to get through with hearts and wrists intact is...

I strolled casually through the cold, gray cemetary. It was autumn but the dreary clouds had already chased away the colorful sun, and the leaves had already fallen and died. Or maybe it was just this place, maybe this is just how it was here. I wouldn't know, I barely ever went anywhere else anymore.

I closed my eyes and paused mometarily, breathing in the cold air. It stung my lungs and made me cough.

Pulling the thin material of the gray hoodie/dress over my hands, trying to warm them up. God knows how long I would be wandering this place for. I continued to walk, my feet lost not only underneath the broken leaves but invisible in the strange, swirling mist that hangs around here. This was a god for saken place. It truly was. I would be surprised if I ever saw anyone else hanging about here other than myself and a few stray groups of teenagers, trying to test their bravery. With this odd mist, gray skies, dead and gnarled trees it was a kind of creepy barren place.

I smiled. A slow smile that crept up towards my eyes, making them crease up slightly. Only you could make me smile like this. Today, today would be the ultimate day. Today is thee day. I could barely contain my excitement. Forgetting the coldness, I sucked in a great lungful of air and coughed again. I can almost hear you laughing and rolling your eyes at how pathetic and weak I must look to you. But you love me, so it's okay.

I know, not wish. I murmer to myself. Lucky there's no one around here, they would think that I was a right nut job. But not that, oh no. Never that. The silence was almost defeaning, I was almost sure that I could hear you approaching. The shuffle of feet against the floor, stirring the leaves. A twist of mist where you glided though. But I forgot, you were like the living dead. Silent and deadly. I couldn't wait to see those thick lips curling up into a mocking smile. Those olive green eyes, beautiful and mysterious. Just like you. The thick, tangled black hair that you loved to run your hands through. Your devishly handsome looks. Every inch of you; perfection. Almost angelicly so. Which was laughingly ironic. And which still kept me wondering about why. Why me?

I closed my eyes and lowered my head towards the ground. I felt the fabric slip further down my neck. Then you were there. You were everywhere all at once. In my face, on my lips, kissing my neck, holding my hand. Even if I opened my eyes I wouldn't be able to pinpoint where you would be next. You were to quick for me. Too quick for anyone. Which should be sending shivers up my spine, but it didn't. It simply made me want you more. My heart sped up at every touch, every kiss. I felt you cheekily lick my neck and I inclined my head towards you, breathing in your calming scent. I loved every single thing about you.

Yes. Every. Single. Thing.

Yes, especially that. I heart you snort and I laugh. Why wouldn't you just believe me? Believe me when I say that you're not a freak, that I would love you no matter what. That I would do anything for you, that i trusted you with my life and knew that you would never do anything to harm me. But I was willing to make a temporary allowance, because I would be getting something amazing in return for it.