The only way to get through with hearts and wrists intact is...

So this isn't all that great or anything, but it's just a bit of writing to get me back into the spirit of things. Comment please =]

I sat in the darkened room, and for once I was glad for it. The darkness I usually despised and feared was my security this time. I could sense him across the room on the bed, I couldn't see him and I knew he couldn't see me. He couldn't see the fresh tears glistening in my eyes, or the dirty stains on my arms. I was thankful for that.

'Why do you have to do it, Alice?' I could hear the sharpness in his voice, the frustration more than clear. I wondered if he meant it to sound as harsh as it does.

I responded with silence. Falling in love is giving someone power. What they do with that power is up to them. They either use it for good and make you feel like your soaring, or they use it to hurt you and make you tumble down and collide with hard concrete. No matter how many times you crash into that concrete ground though, it never seems to knock any sense into you. And even though it hurts like hell people all over the world continue to do it. Why? Maybe because they know that when it stops the after effects will be ten times worse than it is now, and we will have to deal with that pain all alone.

I heard him sift in the darkness but I stayed frozen on the spot. I didn't dare move or respond. Afraid that if I did the whole world would come crashing down around me, suffocating me. I didn't want to lose it. Not now, not here.

'I...I don't mean to,' I finally whispered, regretting it at once. I was pretty sure that he was rolling those pretty green eyes, hating me in his head.

'Yes you do, you know you do.' He got up and I felt a brief swirl of air as he passed by me.

'I love you...' It came out before I could stop it. 'Please, please stay with me.' He had been with me for as long as I could remember, even if all that time hadn't been very happy. Through all the cheating, the lies, on both sides. Neither of us refused to leave each other out in the cold, hard world to suffer alone. But it seemed that he had changed his mind. Maybe, just maybe, he had grown up. The sin of all sins.

'Don't. Don't say that Alice. Don't play that card, don't try and guilt me anymore. I'm not falling for it anymore. I'm not waiting anymore, I've had enough. I'm sorry.'

I took a sharp intake of breath and closed my eyes.

The dry blood on my arms hurt and itched and I subconsciously started to scratch them. I opened my mouth to try and say something, anything. This was it, I had this one last chance to convince him to stay. But all that came out was a sob.

'Goodbye. Alice.' His soft, beautiful voice. His last words.

Stay with me, stay with me. I need you. I need you. My heart bleeds without you. I am nothing now. Nothing without you. You can't leave me. I love you.

My telepathic message to him. As he opened the door and closed it behind him, I stood. Waiting. Listening. Waiting for another reply.

'This heart, it beats. Beats for only you. My heart is yours,' my whisper was lost into the darkness. Embraced once again into non-existance.

And then it hit me.